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Training traiiining ! #Training #Sketch #Hand Awh man, i'm soo tired and depressed i can't put any effort in my sketchs actually ... and i got stuck when i tried drawing an hand soo.... Yey training time. I mean... It's kinda hard to draw when you're just super duper sad and can't talk about it to anyone, even your parents. I'm just, tanking that, and try to walk again. Even tho i'm on the ground, crawling haha... I think i'll get help sooner or later about my chronical depression. It's getting really out of hands nowdays, surely because of the pandemic crisis and the fact that i'm a loner too. Yeah i didn't saw any other human beings since 3/4 years now. Except my parents and my sis, at least, there is that. .. .i feel awkward while going outside. 10 times more when somebody watch me 1000 times more when someone talk to me. I think i got, somehow, acclimated to not be social IRL. I can't even... recognize old friends anymore. I feel like everything is gone too. Can't recognize myself in super old photos. I'm feeling like i'm some sort of a monster ? I don't know how to describe this feeling i have. I feel like i'm almost no longer on the same page as other people. Yes, the only thing i can feel. Is the memories of the happiest moment in my life. And the pain of the worst moments. *sight* I guess we all need some "character developpement", nah ?
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bluehana
that can help you alot you can eat anything you want but in a healthier way , be more nice to yourself don't over think please , try to listen to nice songs or read your favorite books or learn a new language like me😂 , spent more time with your family try to play games with them that both enjoy
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PhotoFlowey
i'm doing it. I'm eating less sugar stuff and bad stuff in general, even tho i keep eating a lot, i'm eating just a single time in the day. I'm skipping breakfast and i'm... walking a lot, even today, even tho my left feet is broken and painfull, reeeeeeally painfull. I'll be my best "me".
PhotoFlowey
Well, my fam doesn't like playin' games with me, i'm too harsh and good at them most of the time lol But, for the musics, i'm addicted to Home, pretty sure you know what i mean, the chillsave, synthwave musics on Youtube. Awesome stuff there, thanks to summoning salt
bluehana
you can write a story or make a manga in the future you can do what ever you what this is your life you are the main character you can look around you even in nature every creature doing his best to live and you can do the same I believe that ,thank you for your replay and have a great day 😁🌺🌺🌺
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bluehana
p.s. I will pray 🙏 for your feet too and I hope you get well soon 😊 🌺🌺🌺🌺
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PhotoFlowey
Well about it, it's broken, but sometimes i dont really feel the pain, its kinda random, and the more i move with it, the more the pain dissipate. The main problem, is the morning lmao When i woke up, my pain is absurdly painfull, like 10x more than i excpect it to be
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